The bookstore event. He had walked in during the Q&A.
He had known.
I remembered complaining to him about the rich family my mother used to work for, how she came home with nothing, how she died still ashamed.
He had listened, and he had said nothing.
“We can talk about this like adults.”
***
At sunrise I strapped Nora into the car seat and drove to the address on the oldest envelope.
The house was smaller than my memory had made it. The garden was the same.
An older man opened the door – thinner than I had imagined, but the eyes told me everything.
“You look exactly like your mother,” William said.
I held Nora tighter. “I need to speak with Caleb.”
“Caleb isn’t available.”
“Please get off my porch.”
“Then tell me why he left.”
William glanced at Nora. “Come inside. We can talk about this like adults.”
“I want an answer.”
His eyes dropped to Nora. For one brief second, something flickered across his face – recognition.
Then it was gone.
Something folded open inside me.
His jaw tightened, and when he looked at me again, his expression was perfectly controlled.
“He knew about the pregnancy. He chose to leave.” His voice was calm now. “That is the answer you drove all this way for. Take your daughter and go home.”
“I don’t believe you.”
“That is not my concern. Please get off my porch.”
I stepped back into the garden, and something folded open inside me.
“Don’t come back.”
A woman crying at a door. My mother’s hand wrapped tightly around mine.
A man’s voice following us down these same steps.
“Don’t come back.”