“She… she did all this…”
Inside were simple printed schedules.
- Morning routines.
- Meal ideas.
- Notes reminding me to go outside.
Sticky notes were tucked between the pages.
“Eat something warm today. I’ll feel better knowing you did.”
“Don’t skip breakfast again.”
There were a few cookbooks, too, with marked pages and notes in the margins. I pressed one of them to my chest.
“My baby thought of everything…” I whispered.
Judy just squeezed my shoulder.
Inside were simple printed schedules.
***
The third box was labeled “People You’ll Need.”
Inside was a list of names.
- Neighbors.
- Lily’s friend Ava’s mom.
- Ms. Holloway and Mr. Bennett.
Each name had a note next to it.
Why they mattered and when I should reach out.
Judy let out a slow breath. “Lily clearly didn’t want you to feel alone.”
Inside was a list of names.
***
The fourth box was different.
“Memories You’ll Forget First.”
I didn’t think that was possible. But when I opened it, I realized she was right.
There were photos I’d never seen.
Lily laughing in the kitchen and sitting cross-legged on the floor, reading.
There were notes attached to some of them.
“This was the day you burned the pancakes, and we laughed for 30 minutes.”
A shaky laugh escaped me through my tears.
“I forgot about that…”
My sister smiled softly. “She didn’t.”
I didn’t think that was possible.
***
The fifth box scared me a bit: “The Hard Truth.”
I hesitated before opening it.
Inside was a journal. I flipped it open slowly. Her handwriting filled every page.
My daughter wrote about her doctor’s appointments, the days she felt weaker, and how she could see it in my face, even when I tried to hide it.
“She knew…” I whispered.
Judy nodded quietly.
Her handwriting filled every page.
Lily had written about me.
How I kept saying everything would be okay, and how I avoided the truth because I couldn’t handle it.
“Lily didn’t want me to fall apart…” I said, my voice breaking.
That’s when I finally lost it again.
I turned and buried my face in Judy’s shoulder, crying harder than I had in weeks.
And for the first time since everything happened…
I didn’t try to hold it in.
Lily had written about me.
***
I don’t know how long Judy held me.
But she didn’t rush me. She just stood there, steady, letting me cry in a way I hadn’t allowed myself to since everything happened. Eventually, I pulled back and wiped my face.
That’s when something clicked. I frowned at her.
“Ju… how did you know which storage facility to come to?” I asked. “I didn’t give you the address.”
She hesitated, then sighed softly.
“It took you a while,” she said, smiling. “I worked with Lily for months to organize all of this. She insisted.”
I stared at her.
“You knew?”