“Terrified, yes. Mad? No.” I smoothed her hair back. “We all make mistakes, sweetheart. That’s what growing up is.”
She started working part-time at a bookstore in her junior year. She’d come home smelling like coffee and paper, telling me about customers and which books she’d recommended.
She was becoming a confident, funny, brilliant person who loved musical theater and terrible reality TV and helped me cook dinner on Sunday nights.
By the time Miranda turned 17, she was taller than I was. She’d stopped flinching when people asked about her family. She called me Mom without hesitation.
One night, we were washing dishes together after dinner, and she said, “You know I love you, right?”
I looked at her, surprised. “Of course I know that.”
“Good. I just wanted to make sure you knew.”
I thought we were okay. I thought we’d made it through the hard part.
Her 18th birthday fell on a Saturday. We threw a party at our apartment for friends from school, my coworkers from the diner, and our neighbor, Mrs. Chan, who always brought homemade dumplings.
Miranda wore a gorgeous dress and laughed at every terrible joke my manager told. She blew out her candles and made a wish she wouldn’t tell me.
“You have to wait and see if it comes true,” she said with a mysterious smile.
That night, after everyone left, I was folding laundry in my room when Miranda suddenly appeared in the doorway with an expression I couldn’t read.
“Mom? Can we talk?”
Something in her voice made my stomach drop. I sat down on the bed.
“Of course, dear. What’s going on?”
She walked in slowly, her hands shoved deep in her hoodie pockets. She wouldn’t meet my eyes.
“I’m 18 now.”
“I know,” I said, smiling. “Old enough to vote. To buy lottery tickets. To legally ignore my advice.”
She didn’t smile.
“I got access to the money this week. From my mom, Lila. The insurance payout. Her savings account. Everything she left me.”
My heart raced. We’d never really talked about Lila’s money. I’d set up a trust when I adopted Miranda, made sure every penny went untouched until she was old enough to decide what to do with it. I’d even told her about it right from the start.
“That’s good,” I managed. “That’s your money, sweetheart. You can do whatever you want with it.”
She finally looked at me. Her eyes were bright, almost feverish.
“I know what I want to do with it.”
“Okay.”
She took a shaky breath. “You need to pack your things.”
The room tilted. The words bounced around in my head without landing anywhere.
“What?”
“You need to pack your things! I’m serious.”
I stood up. My legs felt weak. “Miranda, I don’t understand what you’re saying.”
“I’m legally an adult. I can make my own decisions now.”
“Yes, of course you can, but…”
