Brandon had left Milfield at eighteen, declaring small-town Pennsylvania as suffocating as the soil that had paid for his education. He’d visited only when absolutely necessary, usually staying in a hotel rather than his childhood bedroom because “the country air aggravates my sinuses.” But suddenly, during his father’s final weeks, he developed a profound interest in the family business that had embarrassed him throughout his adolescence.
Melissa arrived three days later, bringing with her six suitcases and the scent of expensive failure. Five wellness ventures in eight years. Each one launched with her father’s money. Each one abandoned when it required actual work. But she hugged Nicholas with genuine tears and slept beside his bed the night before he passed, which is why I still struggle with what came after.
The funeral was small, just as Nicholas would have wanted. The cemetery sits on a low hillside outside town, overlooking our orchards; the spring blossoms were just beginning to show. I stood between my children as they lowered him into the ground, Brandon’s arms stiff around my shoulders, Melissa openly weeping into a monogrammed handkerchief I’d never seen before.
“He’s at peace now,” the pastor said.
And I wondered if that was true, or just something people say when someone dies after long suffering. Nicholas and I weren’t religious, but we’d maintained the social convention of occasional church attendance—Easter, Christmas, the odd potluck—enough that Pastor Williams knew to focus on Nicholas’s love for the land rather than any heavenly reward.
What I remember most about that day was the silence afterward. The house echoed with it as neighbors dropped off casseroles and spoke in hushed tones about Nicholas’s kindness, his integrity, how he’d helped Mr. Peterson save his dairy farm during the recession or employed the Wilson boys when they needed summer work. Nobody mentioned how he’d built our business from nothing while raising two children who seemed to have inherited none of his values.
“I made up the guest rooms,” I told Brandon and Melissa that evening as the last visitors left. “I thought we could spend tomorrow going through some of your father’s things together.”
“About that, Mom,” Brandon said, setting down his whiskey glass with a precision that reminded me of his father. “Melissa and I have been talking, and we think it’s best if we settle things quickly. We both need to get back.”
“Settle things?” I asked.
