I accepted money to act like I was an elderly woman’s son because I was desperate to keep my own mother alive. But then the woman I was deceiving began holding my hand as if I truly belonged to her, and after she d:ied, the nursing home informed me that she had left one last request meant only for me.

The clock on the dashboard showed 11:47 when I eased my delivery van against the curb outside my mother’s apartment building. Rain smeared the streetlights into stretched yellow streaks. I remained there for a few seconds, doing math in my head, taking prescriptions away from rent, arriving at the same answer that never worked.

I picked up the grocery bag and the little paper pharmacy sack, then climbed all three flights.

Mom opened the door before I could knock, just like she always did.

“You shouldn’t be out this late, dear.”

“Ma, I’m fine. Brought your blood pressure pills and that soup you like.”

She cupped my face between both hands. Her palms felt warm, the same warmth I had known all my life.

“You look tired, Jeremy.”

“I’m okay, Ma.”

I was not okay.

The following morning, I squeezed in a coffee shop delivery between shifts. That was when a man lowered himself into the seat across from me without asking permission.

He looked rich.

“You’re Jeremy, right? A friend of mine mentioned you. Said you could use some extra income.”

“Who’s your friend?”

“Doesn’t matter. What matters is I have a problem, and I think you can solve it.”

I should have stood up and left. Instead, I took another sip of coffee.

“My mother is in a nursing home,” the man said. “Her name is Rosie. She has dementia. On her good days, she tells everyone within earshot that her son never comes to see her.”

“So, go see her.”

For a brief moment, his gaze slipped toward the window.

“I can’t watch her like that,” he replied. “Business obligations. Relatives are asking questions. Friends of the family. It’s becoming a situation.”

He pushed a folded stack of cash halfway across the table.

“Five hundred a week. Weekend visits. Call her Mama. Pretend you’re Tim. That’s my name. She won’t know the difference, Jeremy. She doesn’t know who’s in front of her anymore.”

I stared at the money.

“That’s not right, Sir.”

“Right doesn’t pay your mother’s bills.”

The sentence struck exactly where he had aimed it.

“How did you know about my mother?”

“I asked around. You’re a known quantity, Jeremy. Decent guy. Roughly the right age. Looks the part.”

I should have refused. I nearly did.

“Just weekends?” I asked instead.

“Just weekends. Bring her flowers if you want. Sit there for an hour. Smile. Leave.”

My hand moved before my conscience could stop it. I drew the cash toward myself and felt its weight settle into my palm like a small, heavy rock.

“When do I start?”

He almost smiled. For one second, he seemed like a man relieved to place his burden onto someone else’s shoulders.

“Saturday. And Jeremy. Don’t get attached.”

I nodded, already aware that I had agreed to become somebody I was not.

The corridor of the nursing home smelled like disinfectant and faded roses. My hands were clammy as I repeated the name Tim had drilled into me on the phone the previous night.

Room 214. I knocked once, opened the door, and walked in.

Rosie was sitting beside the window with a thin blanket folded over her knees. She lifted her head slowly, blinking against the afternoon brightness.

“Mama,” I said, the word feeling unfamiliar on my tongue. “It’s me. Tim.”

For a long while, she only searched my face. Then her entire expression softened, and she lifted a shaking hand toward me.

“There you are!” she whispered.

I crossed the room and held her hands. I had expected myself to feel smart and distant. Instead, shame rose hot in my throat.

“Sit, sit,” Rosie said, tapping the chair beside her. “Have you eaten? You look tired.”

“I’m okay, Mama.”

“Are you sleeping enough, Timmy? You always pushed yourself too hard.”

No one had asked me those questions in years. Not after my father walked out. Not after my mother became ill.

I stayed there for an hour, mostly letting her talk. Rosie spoke about a garden I had never stepped into and a dog I had never had, and I nodded as though those memories belonged to me.

When I got up to leave, she tightened her fingers around my hand.

“Come back soon.”

“I will, Mama.”

As I turned toward the door, I looked back and saw tears glistening in her eyes. She quickly turned away and wiped them with the edge of her blanket.

On my second visit, I carried tulips. On the third, I brought a little box of caramel chocolates the nurse told me Rosie enjoyed. By the fourth visit, I arrived on a Wednesday, even though Tim had not paid for that day.

In the hallway, I ran into Margaret, a delicate woman with sharp eyes and a cardigan far too large for her frame. She watched me walk past her door with flowers in my hand.

“You visit her a lot,” she said.

“She’s my mother.”

Margaret angled her head. “She’s the sweetest soul here. You’re lucky.”

The way she said it made me glance away.

Tim phoned that Friday. His voice was tight.

“You don’t need to go midweek, Jeremy. This is just a job. Keep it simple.”

“She gets lonely.”

“She has dementia. She forgets the second you leave.”

I clenched the phone harder. “Maybe. But she remembers while I’m there.”

He ended the call.

Weeks faded into months. I began skipping lunch so I could drive across town. I read Rosie the newspaper. I massaged her hands when her knuckles hurt.

One afternoon, she leaned closer, breathing lightly, her eyes clearer than I had ever seen them.

“You’re a good man, son,” she said.

I nearly broke apart right there.

“Mama, I…”